Bilingual Diary/Tagebuch – Kapitel 02/ Chapter 02


Bilingual Diary/Tagebuch – Kapitel 02 / Chapter 02

Untertitel : LIEBE dreht die Welt rundherum – LIEBE ist der Klebstoff der Universen…

Subtitle : LOVE turns the world around – LOVE is the only glue of all universes 

Shortlink : – dated Sept.30, 2017


Bilingual Diary/Tagebuch  –  Introduction/Einführung : Shortlink:

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Es ist soviel über Liebe gesagt und geschrieben worden – auch von mir, wie man in den “Essenzen der Liebe” nachlesen kann. (listed unter dem Projekt “Flowers(Roses) of my Senior Age (Introduktion Shortlink :

So much has been said and written about LOVE – also from myself, as one may read in the “Essences of LOVE” (listed under the Project “Flowers(Roses) of my Senio Age (Introduction Shortlink :

Dort führt EEMichael in einem der vielen Gespräche mit Steve Beckow aus : dass dort wo Liebe ist, auch Licht ist und Frieden und Freude, wenn ich micht gross da irre. Und alle Universen können nur bestehen, wo Licht also Liebe sie zusammenhält. Das kann nicht oft genug gesagt und erinnert werden.Wir werden unaussprechlich geliebt von unserem Schöpfer und den himmlischen Wesen. Und das gibt mir eine so grosse innere Beruhiging und  inneren Frieden. Ich habe schon längst keine Angst mehr wie in früheren Zeiten, denn wir sind in der Dualität mit der Angst geboren worden. Was mich betrifft, so bin ich nun frei davon und ich weiss auch, dass ich mich auf dem Endspurt dieser Incarnation befinde und ich bin bereit, mehr als bereit, heimzugehen.

There AA Michael explaines in one of the manifold talks with Steve Beckow that everywhere there is LOVE also is light, Peace and Joy if I remember rightly.And all universes may be held together by Light and Love. One cannot voice this out and remember well many times enough! We are being loved in some indescribible way by our Creator and all heavenly beings.And this gives me such a great inner tranquility and inner peace. I have lost long ago any fear like in earlier times, for in the duality we all were born with the bundle of fear. Concerning myself I am rid of it and I also know too that I am on the last lap of this incarnation and I am ready and prepared to go home.

In einem Reading kürzlich, das mir EE Micharl gab, als ich danach fragte, ob mein Gefühl mich nicht täusche, hat er mir geantwortet, dass er nichts darüber sagen darf, aber dass ich wissen werde, wenn es soweit ist. Diesen Worten vertraue ich und darum will ich erzählen, was mir so in diesen Tagen alles passiert.

In a reading recently given by AA Michael to me he replied to my query wether I am not belied by my feeling that he is not allowed to reply to my question but that I shall know when it is time. I trust his words and that is why I want to tell, what is happening to me nowadays.

Als ich vor einer Woche vom Einkaufen kam, fiel es mir so sehr schwer, mich mit dem Rollator und der schweren Tasche fortzubewegen. Alles schmerzte und ich war wirklich am Ende meiner Kräfte und wurde immer langsamer. Da hatte ich so ein Gefühl, dass ich begleitet wurde und ertappte mich, dass ich mehrere Male nach rechts schaute, um die Begleitung zu sehen. Aber es war keiner da ! Wieder hatte ich dieses sichere Gefühl, dass eine menschengrosse Gestalt an meiner rechten Seite ging. Da fiel mir die Erinnerung ein an viele, viele Jahre vorher, als etwas Gleiches erlebt hatte und auch zum Einkaufen musste. Dabei hatte ich die Nacht durchgearbeitet und war ähnlich müde wie vor einer Woche. Auch damals hatte ich dieses Gefühl, das Gestalten an meiner rechten Seite gingen. – Damals wusste ich noch nichts von spirituellen Dingen, aber jetzt fühlte ich mich sicher und beschützt.

A week ago when I returned home from shopping groceries walking forward was so less bearable for me to go with the rollator and the heavy grocery bag. There was pain in every cell of my body and I felt my strength going completely down. More and more I slowed down. Suddenly there was such a feeling in me that I was accompanied and several times I instinctively turned to the right wanting to see who is aacompanying me. Bit there was nobody. and again I had the tru feeling that some figure tall like a human being was walking with me on my right side. The Iremembered an event many years before that when I had experienced something similar. Rhen I also had to go shopping groceries and had worked through during the night before and I was tired like a week ago. Back then I had the same feeling of being accompanied by some figures. At that time I never knew anything of spiritual topics but now I felt safe and protechted.

Das war ein Erlebnis in dieser Zeit und heute Nacht waren es mehrere, die mich mit Freude erfüllten. Ich dachte, ich wäre wach, aber wie sich nachher herausstellte, war ich das nicht! War es ein luzider Traum? Da fielen wie im MärchenSterntaler “Zwei-Euro-grosse” Flocken auf mich nieder, alle aus Licht und ich war so glücklich! Ich wollte danach greifen, aber da wachte ich auf und lag immer noch in meinem Bett. Später hatte ich Besuch – zwei Male in der Nacht – es waren Gestalten die zurTür hereinkamen und sich um mein Bett stellten “Wie schön, dass Ihr da seid!” rief ich und wollte nach ihnen greifen und sie anfassen, aber da verschwanden sie wieder. Das passierte 2 Mal. Ich hatte schon über 2 Jahre keinen solchen Besuch mehr. Das machte mich froh und ein Glücksgefühl wob durch mein Herz.

That was one experience of nowadays and tonight there were several onesfilling me with joy. I thought I was awake but as I learned later I was this state. Was it a luzid dream? Like in the Fairy Tale “Coins from the stars) flakes of the size of 2-Euros were falling from the sky on to me – and all were light and I felt so happy about it.I wante to grasp them but Iwoke up and still was in my bed.Later I had visitors – twice in the same night -there were figures coming through the door and circling around my bed.and I called : How nice to have come to me and wanted to touch them but again they disappeared.This happened twice and for the last two years I did not have such a visit. That gave me a big joy and a feeling of bliss and happyness wove through my heart.

Ich werde aufpassen und achtsam durch meine Tage gehen, damit ich solch Erlebnisse nicht versäume und sie mir merken.

I will pay much attention and walk though my days with an attentative mind in order not to miss such experiences and keep them in mind.

Alles Liebe und wir treffen uns wieder in Kapitel Drei.

All my love and we shall meet again in Chapter 03.



The Valley in Crystal-Golden Mountains

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It was in 1993 at a some very cruxial point of my life —when one special lap of the race of my life had ended and I was in the still gap of the break-off … licking my wounds and hurts and trying to overcome the period of first shocks – living from one day to the other.

It was Summer and in my annual holidays having been on my special retreat in a Camping-Trailer on the brink of some little green wilderness with such  beautiful beechtrees which I could embrace whenever I felt like …and I did …so many evenings I sat there besides them and let go of my hurt feelings and mournings.

And I was given so much help amid this beloved small enclave of mine in which I sensed myself as only another being and creature closely linked to Mother Earth.

I did some special oilpainting over the day – a copy of some illustrious German painter which was a commissioned job – and this was done in a most meditative way in utter stillness ….

And then there was a night when I dreamed a dream – I never forgot – at that time I knew that were some so-called “Great Dreams” given to human beings which at that time anyhow were described as very seldom and rare events in human life !

My Dream or what it was:

There I was with many others on some sort of fleeing from some dark and pressing Danger in an old part of a town which was grey and black with houses appearently being abandoned and all of us were running and trying to get on a train or some sort of streetcar… crowding on it like fleas on some plumtart …. It was a real nightmare – since this I had experienced in the end of WorldWar II in true life – and in this very dream I just took to it as it was a commonly known experience of my … I just thought: “Again?” – I know I am dreaming but what now again ? ….

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Suddenly I was standing on a steep hill overlooking some greater valley all surrounded by some steep mountains. Somebody was at my side – I did not turn to look at this Being – I knew it was someone divine  – at that time I thought it was God or certainly at least an Angel- as I consciously knew I was in a dream and I did not have to look at God or Angel  – fearing all could vanish before my eyes – it was my deep respect and honoring His Presence – something told me not to take a serious look on him – it was just not done not at all at this precise moment – but we talked ( telepathic) and I felt this all-embracing love coming from him to me.

I looked into the valley and saw it was in full Shine … didn’t know whether from sunshine or an inner glow.

It was all Golden-Yellow and the mountains surrounding this valley were of Shining Gold-Yellow ! I was stunned with awe and there was a great joy and delight pervading myself and my heart! I saw and watched and it took my breath away ! To me it seemed as there was a jubilee singing around in this Valley of Gold !

The mountains so shining did not appear to be out of plain gold which is of some harsh and solid constituent but they were as if out of some transparent material – a bit like of glass – that is what I thought then.

Now I know these were Crystal Shining Gold Mountains … and I remember holding my breath as if I had to drink something so beautiful into my whole body and myself and to hold it there for keepsake.

I knew there was an urge from that “Divine Being” at my side to leave this place as it was not the real and exact time to step down into this Golden Area.

I begged for some more time to stay and said that I wanted to inhale this “Golden Shining Sight” in order to never forget it all my life from then onward.

Then I saw another valley joining like an arm or extension of this one below me and there was a road on which many many people were working and retrieving from the golden mountains the material to produce building bricks from it ….. There was such a hustling and zealous bustling there and all along a road with apple-trees in this Crystal Golden Area….
This is all I was allowed to perceive ….and the very next I found myself on some Fair with stalls and carousels coarsely and vividly painted on their fronts only – just what it is ordinary on a fair where masses of people enjoy themselves….

Yes – this is what I thought “our life is like this now” – and all in my so-called dream – we try to enjoy ourselves among shabby stalles painted coarsely with trivial alike amusements ….

If I had not known better that somewhere else –  just a turn of the road away from here – a Golden Shining Crystal Valley was lieing in wait – only a brink away from these coarse entertainments —–

I never forgot this prescious dream which now I know was a soul-journey presented to me as a great gift into the approaching Golden Age.

This I wanted to share with you all here who are attracted by some alike vibration of myself to read my writings and thoughts.

And So Be it … Blessings to all of you !

Later I wrote some Verses on this Deep Experience when I was “out on a limb” but not recognizing it as such …..

Der Traum von den goldenen Bergen

Einst kam ein Traum zu mir des nachts
des Bild mich noch heute glücklich macht :
ich stand am Rande einer grauen Stadt,
sah auf ein Bild, das meines Lebens’ Sehnsucht stillt.

I had a dream one night so far
and sheer delight fills me today
there was I standing on the brink
of some grey depth of town so dark
and saw a picture – which all my yearning stilled.

Golden-gelbe Berge breiten sich vor mir aus,
fast durchscheinend werfen sie goldenes Licht hinaus,
erfüllen mich mit nie erlebten Glücksgefühl,
ich halt den Atem an und werd’ im Inn’ren still.

Golden-yellow hills steeping on my eyes
throwing out their transparenting golden shine
and fill my heart with awesome golden light!
They take my breath away and go into my Inner Self.

Aller Aufruhr und die Unruh dieses Lebens
entschwand in jenem Augenblick
mein Auge trank sich satt an dieser Schönheit Fest,
mir ward bewußt:
“Dies Bild behalt ich mir für meines Leben’s Rest!”

All the turmoil and the unrest of my life
they vanished in that momentum click.
My eyes drank deep this beauty’s ball
since I knew then: “this is what I behold
for my living rest!”

Kaum gibt es eine Sprache,
kein Wort vermag zu zeigen.
Es sangen tausend Geigen!
Mein Herz begann zu singen
und erhob mit allen Schwingen
sich auf mit heißem Dank!
Oh mein Gott, wie ist dies schön!
Ich vergess es nie –
mein Leben lang !

Rarely I can find a language,
no speech may show this pic!
When thousand violins were playing!
My heart with joy began its singing
and lifted up with all its wings with
loving thanks.
Oh My God – how is this so filled with beauty!
Which I never lose – forget in all my life !

Ich barg dies Bild als gold’nen Schrein
tief in mein eig’nes inn’res Sein,
bin mir hier stets eingedenk,
dies ist das Licht, das nun mein Leben lenkt.

I hid away this pic as golden shrine
deeply into my very being –
recalling it for me in all my time –
this is the light of my self divine.

Dies trag ich in mir jetzt für alle Zeit,
denk’ ich daran, erfüllt mich lichte Kradt,
die in mir wächst und neues Geben schafft.

This I bear now in all realms of life –
recalling it – there’s light on me from far,
in ever-growing strength of “Give” anew.

Jetzt weiß ich auch so tief bewußt,
dies Hier ist nur der Vordergrund
in Liebe, Haß und Frust,
getarntes Licht in schweren Schwingen,
so leicht ist es, uns Menschen zu verwirren –
es hat nie aufgehört, in uns zu singen.
Wir sind doch mehr, als wir hier scheinen,
das Licht in uns – es will uns einen …………………….

And now this is my knowledge deep and true
“Here”is only view in front with all its Passion, Hate
and not true — it’s

“Light in Camouflage with heavy wings afloat
and so easy to confuse us human beings -“
thereby, there is no end to our hearts so lovely singing…!
We are so much and more than we appear –
the sparkling light in us – it once will join us in the rear…

Was ist das Leben hier am wahren Ende?
Nur Spiegel von mir und grob bemalte Jahrmarktsstände …..

What is life in its true end?
The very mirror of myself and coarsely painted walls of stalls
on Fairs of Humans with so many trivials.

Eva Maria – alias ContraMary 1993

meaning the Eva Maria wrote the original in German 1993
and the ContraMary translated it today …..

Amen and Om Shanti in the sense of restoring peace and love all through this World !