Re-blogged from Jean H.:”www.2012 what’s the’real’truth?”with a Foreword of Jean H..
Dear Friends, Family,
A reader of my blog, Susan, shares some images and thoughts about her journe y into the Amazon to work with the Shipibo shamans, who use Ayahuasca for healing purposes. The use of this drug impresses me, because while the journey may be difficult, my impression is that it always leaves you with something positive to consider. In other words, the dark does not seem quite so dark. My thanks to Susan. It’s an interesting read!
This past couple of weeks, I found my way to the Amazon to work with the Shipibo Shamans at the Temple of the Way of Light, the same place Graham Hancock discussed on his TED talk, War on Consciousness. I felt a huge urge to do this work after seeing that talk. I was amazed, totally challenged and am in awe of the experiences I had there.
This was a life changing experience, however, it is clear to me that the real work begins now. I received so many insights, saw so many things, it’s difficult to lump anything all together so thought I would bullet them for convenience.
* First night was spent in profound grief. I seemed to be clearing my family trauma history through to my grandparents. It was very painful but very needed. I saw how the generational trauma had been perpetuated down through the family line. I felt a tremendous amount of compassion for my parents and the trauma they endured, including my siblings. I also saw how I continue to attack myself around the trauma I perpetuated upon my children. I have been merciless on myself—no surprise I would wind up with an auto-immune disease—the epitome of self-attack. Somewhere in there I found compassion for that part of me that was so very angry, had suffered huge loss throughout my childhood and realized that, even though I need to be accountable for my wrongdoings (sometimes harsh, abusive parenting, substance issues), I needed to forgive and love that part of me anyway. This was huge. I purged out all that grief and trauma that was keeping me in a state of anxiety and depression. I purged out the long ago years of cocaine abuse. Gone. It became abundantly clear to me that I needed to really work on taking care of myself and not drive myself so hard out of guilt and shame. Work less, not try so hard particularly by rescuing others, especially my children out of shame and guilt. Huge lessons. Continue reading