Sometimes this new Realm we all are starting to live in appear to be fields of vast riddles for me and how I shall conduct this new life of mine.
Frankly and honestly I am at such a loss ho to proceed forward as I realize that most of the former guidelines along which I conducted my life – they really have gone and do not work any more. This I can feel and ascertain from my very own responsive actions on what I am facing daily. I am trying to follow the resonance of of my Inner Godself and heart and I am surprising myself all the time! There seems to be a new inner person that I am … arising in some sort alien and strange kind to me which I am not accustomed to yet.
Most weird to me is that the loss of all my former great yearning which prompted so much my llife of past decades with a deep pain in my heart …they have gone altogether and there seems to be a vast empty space instead yet which I do not know how to fill properly ….
I do know I have to change thinking as pre-requisites in order to gain manifestations of the new basic ethics – this is telling me my mind – but I want to listen and hear the response of my inner heart yet this also shows itself from the tacitum side for quite some while.
Even when I commence reading former so much cherished channelings or articles .. I feel something inner high vibration missing lest for a very few! They do not carry me away as in former periods of the past year! And thus I even feel so much reluctant to read all the good advice, and the more so, all news of the outward internet publications about funds, foreclosures , and all that is being worked on not in the open – well, all the wild rumor mills ! I am not interested in all those at all.
So I refrained my self from posting lately any articles presenting you with carrying the encourageous features of my former last year’s posts since I do not really feel these in my inner heart as I still am searching this wide new empty field of my life myself …I assume as so many others. and I do not want to be secreet about these new issues of mine now to you. Anything that I do not believe truly in my heart I cannot post and present you with ! So I am still continuing with my own search what this new life may entail for me spiritually that I may manifest down to our Mother Gaia. And whenever I can get hold of some new spritiual experience which I do not have to question whether it might be some useless remnant of the last matrix, I ‘ll tell you.
But for the time being I have to cope with a new attack of rheumatism in my left shoulder preventing me too from beingh able to write and type in the former speedy way I have been used to. So this I take also for one of the new issues that I have to deal with in the meantime.
Since today I came across a post of the Blog “Remove the Shackles” which I deem a very good explanative parable of our situation of Now! It was such a comfort for me to read it and because of my long missed resonance of my inner heart suddenly arose again I feel I have to reveal it to you too.
Your with Compassionate and Unconditional Love as always
Posted: 17 Jan 2013 11:11 AM PST
This was sent to me in an email from a lovely reader- I immediately had to share this here:
I was pondering it all (it being OPPT) and was shown a metaphor I thought I’d share with you that kinda explained to me the variety of reactions to news that so many of us Lightworkers/starseeds/indigos etc have wanted for so long…and yet here it seems to be, so much more amazing than I ever dared imagine it could be…and yet some peeps are expressing doubt and anger and frustration and disbelief and fear…??!! What the…?!!!