Still sorting out for myself: “What does this Newly gained Realm mean for myself ?”

Sometimes this new Realm we all are starting to live in appear to be fields of vast riddles for me and how I shall conduct this new life of mine.

Frankly and honestly I am at such a loss ho to proceed forward as I realize that most of the former guidelines along which I conducted my life – they really have gone and do not work any more. This I can feel and ascertain from my very own responsive actions on what I am facing daily. I am trying to follow the resonance of of my Inner Godself and heart and I am surprising myself all the time! There seems to be a new inner person that I am … arising in  some sort alien and strange kind to me which I am not accustomed to yet.

Most weird to me is that the loss of all my former great yearning which prompted so much my llife of past decades with a deep pain in my heart …they have gone altogether and there seems to be a vast empty space instead yet which I do not know how to fill properly ….

I do know I have to change thinking as pre-requisites in order to gain manifestations of the new basic ethics – this is telling me my mind – but I want to listen and hear the response of my inner heart yet this also shows itself from the tacitum side for quite some while.

Even when I commence reading former so much cherished channelings or articles .. I feel something inner high vibration missing lest for a very few! They do not carry me away as in former periods of the past year! And thus I even feel so much reluctant to read all the good advice, and the more so, all news of the outward internet publications about funds, foreclosures , and all that is being worked on not in the open – well, all the wild rumor mills ! I am not interested in all those at all.

So I refrained my self from posting lately any articles presenting you with carrying the encourageous features of my former last year’s posts since I do not really feel these  in my inner heart as I still am searching this wide new empty field of my life myself …I assume as so many others. and I do not want to be secreet about these new issues of mine now to you. Anything that I do not believe truly in my heart I cannot post and present you with ! So I am still continuing with my own search what this new life may entail for me spiritually that I may manifest down to our Mother Gaia. And whenever I can get hold of some new spritiual experience which I do not have to question whether it might be some useless remnant of the last matrix, I ‘ll tell you.

But for the time being I have to cope with a new attack of rheumatism in my left shoulder preventing me too from beingh able to write and type in the former speedy way I have been used to. So this I take also for one of the new issues that I have to deal with in the meantime.

Since today I came across a post of the Blog “Remove the Shackles” which I deem a very good explanative parable of our situation of Now! It was such a comfort for me to read it and because of my long missed resonance of my inner heart suddenly arose again I feel I have to reveal it to you too.

Your with Compassionate and Unconditional Love as always



Removing The Shackles (


Metaphor of Now

Posted: 17 Jan 2013 11:11 AM PST

This was sent to me in an email from a lovely reader- I immediately had to share this here:

I was pondering it all (it being OPPT) and was shown a metaphor I thought I’d share with you that kinda explained to me the variety of reactions to news that so many of us Lightworkers/starseeds/indigos etc have wanted for so long…and yet here it seems to be, so much more amazing than I ever dared imagine it could be…and yet some peeps are expressing doubt and anger and frustration and disbelief and fear…??!! What the…?!!!

Anyways here’s the metaphor:
I saw a movie once where these prisoners were held in a concentration camp during WW2, and made to do all these things against their will, moral code etc. Then the Germans flee the camp (the Russians were coming) and the prisoners were left there alone. No-one ‘announces’ to them they are ‘now free’…they gradually have to figure it out for themselves. But it takes a couple of prisoners to risk being ‘shot’…dying… – by stepping outside of the barracks they have been confined in. When they do, they learn that their guards and captors have all gone. Then they tell all the other prisoners. Some laugh hysterically. Some cry with happiness. Some take a LOT of convincing. Some refuse to believe. Some choose to lay down and die. Some become angry. They don’t know quite what to do with themselves …they have longed for FREEDOM for so long and now it is here. But they have also had someone telling them what to do for so long…suddenly they have to think and feel for themselves again now and in essence, gain back their own sovereignty …they can just BE again.
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The Years of Life tell me that I am old - My Inner Heart tells me that I am young - it is proof that I still live in Duality and as I decided to outgrow this Matrix I am prepared to ascend into some other realm leaving all the old and shabby patterns behind me pluck up all my courage for the New Age with shining lights so Golden of Promise - And take with me nothing but love - peace - harmony and one only virtue of 3-D density : staying a pioneer all my lifes ... ready for another adventure ... with the Help of God Almighty...