When 20 years ago it dawned on me that this kind of life was not what I appreciated I started to look consciously for literature about ethic, mysticism, religions to find out more about why I was so dissatisfied with life as it presented it to me. And as I had not the
funds needed for attending courses or lessons I went to search in all the 2nd hand bookshops and remnants for sale to read the arising grassroots-literature about spiritual growing. Thus I was safeguarded against unnecessary expenditures for all sorts of courses which otherwise I certainly had attended.
I did – on the other hand enrol for a 3-days mindcontrol-lectures (Silva Mind control) and passed some Reiki teachings (the original Dr, Usui method) attaining the 1st and 2nd degree. As Hamburg is quite a lively town there where a lot of meditation centers offer lectures free of charge so for instance the Center of Tibetan Bhuddism I was a frequent visitor at all these centers in order to find out more about all the spiritual paths.
When I recall this time I must agree that I was quite busy then and at home I was reading everything I could lay my hands on.
These were the times when I consciously quit my former life and all the schedules pertaining to it as I sensed what great influence was excerted on us by all economic and political environment trying to convince us what was thought good for us which only aroused my suspicious mind all the more. To me everything told us wasgetting more and more empty and flat. All that was impressed on us by the Main Stream Media was so hollow and without any ethical substance …just like the goods in a Supermarket in flashing colors trying to attract consumers to spend money for ready-made products which could be done at home much easier and cheaper and also in healthier way.
I sensed some alert in my veins and that was that!
I gave my notice to the former 3-D-schedule of life in a supermarket and since then
I made m very own strides forward on my spiritual path.
This was the time when I started writing verses and little essays on what I had read and thought. One of these is the following invocation:
Invocation to the Realms of Light
The Light from above is to fill all my soul
and from the inner planes all knowledge is taught
the light of wisdom may come
to my heart….
The Light of Love and companion of Man
may give me the force to fulfill the
the light of my heart gets rid of
and towers of fear are vanishing
I call for thy
help, thou Bearers of Light
to brighten the path into lands of thy sight
inflaming my heart with furthering
in burning like flames in body and
The brilliance of Spirit in fire above
is coming to me –
my thirst calls for thy craft,
the burning desire is flame in my heart
I serve in the choir with lightening
Thou Bearers of Light –
acknowledge this heart,
accept thy earth-daughter in doing
to serve here on Gaia with serious a
with heart full of love for every kind.
I call on thou Mighties – for all which
I’m still one of thy kin –
I strive for the light and thee
for the plane I am in,
for the motion of thought,
new knowledge of sight,
to work in the Plan
spread for Gaia the Light….
1992 by Contramary
I think at this time I was reading Alice Bailey as recently I came across an invocation of her that I have not known at all and it is so similar to the one above that I wrote without any knowledge of that famous invocation of Alice Bailey.. This just to point out how much spiritual contents may influence our subconscious mind.